my 1st year with him!! :D

september 26, 2010...

that was our 1st year as friends and lovers.. :)

that day we started to reminisce everything from the start..

hahaha which is funny

ang dami namn naalala..

kung panu ko sya sinagot, panu kami nagkakilala

hahahaha :D nakakatuwang isipin na ngaun??

i can imagine living my life with him forever..

we dont have a perfect relationship that makes the thrilling part ..

hmmm we fight, but we still love each other..

that day.. we dont have any marvelous celebration at all..

the first thing we did was go to church and pray..

i thanked god for everything that's happening in my life specially with him!

we pray together and after that we ate at Greenwich because im craving for lasagna

since im not contented sa food na kinaen nmn..

bimili kami ng bilao ng palabok! hahahaha

tuwa nmn tatay ko.. kasi nakakaen sya

hahahaha simple celebration lang.. with my family..

another thing kung bakit ako thankful..

kasi sobrang close na sila ng family ko..

kaya lalo ko syang minamahal ..

kinantahan nya ko that made me cry... syempre pinipigil ko luha ko.. hahahaha

hahaha.. :) he was the greatest gift i ever had in my life..

i cant imagine my life without him~!!!

i love him so much ..

that i can do the impossible!! :)

Dream Wedding of Mine

.. wedding is one of the most prestigious event in our life!!

its once in a lifetime experience and it is sacred!

every women dreams to have the most wonderful wedding with the one they love..

wedding is not a joke, when you decide to marry someone its for a lifetime

i hate couples who get married then get divorced

wedding is sacred and its a lifetime commitment to your partner, children and to god.

hmm.. actually i wanted to be a wedding planner

i love seeing couples smiling, happy and proud of their wedding.

since i wanted to be a wedding planner

i had planned my own wedding for the future

hahaha and i really need a lot of money!!

i want my wedding to be elegant, fabulous, and romantic.

lets start with the basics...

The Ring:

i want a 14 karat white gold with round brilliant five cut diamonds worth $1,499 dollars by Helzberg diamonds

The gown:

i want my gown to be sexy but elegant, since most of the brides choose tube type of gown

i choose the off shoulder type of gown, i want my gown full of diamonds, i want my gown to be long at the back portion, and the veil should be long also..

i want Monique Lhuillier to design my gown she is a famous Filipino wedding designer based on united states. :)

the groom will be wearing a barong tagalog made from pina silk.

the rest will be designed by oscar dela rente

The making & the ride:

me and the groom will be staying at diamond hotel on bay walk to get dressed of course separate room and its near the church and the reception.

i observed that other brides ride on a limousine or other cars

i want everything to be unique so i will be riding on a white horse not a Kalesa but a horse

The Church:

i chose Manila Cathedral as my wedding church because it is a very historic place, and its elegant structure made the wedding more romantic and elegant on its own way.

The Time of Wedding:

since all wedding starts on morning

my wedding will start at 430pm and by sunset it will end.

i want my husband and i to have a picture on the sunset after our marriage.

The Photographer:

Chito Ignacio will be the photographer for the whole event

The Reception:

i want my reception on a cruise ship

i want to rent the whole ship.

the name of the cruise ship is "the 7017 island cruise" it will tour around palawan, boracay,puerto galera, coron, cebu and bohol!

the cruise ship have 137 bedrooms and can accommodate 500 guests.

at exactly 10 pm the cruise ship will explore the warm waters of the Philippines.

so in short the reception will be an overnight party on the ship!

there are different amenities on "the 7107 island cruise"

internet, gym, pool, spa, and bar

it will be a party all night long

and at 12 midnight there will be fireworks on the sky!

dancing, drinking and lots of food that is the kind of reception i want!

The Foods:

i want all kinds of food to be served

seafoods, vegetables, meats, chicken, lechon, hahaha

i want everything to be Filipino foods!

i want the most prestigious Filipino chef to cook for the event!

The Honeymoon:

i want to tour the whole Philippines with my husband

Luzon, Visayas, Mindanao

and all the beautiful island of the Philippines.

................ wooohh time to wake up!!

what a dream!! thats the wedding i want!

i bet thats a lot of work to do

i need a lot of money to achieve that kind of wedding

wedding is so much fun to dream

all the glamor, the elegance and the romance that you can experience on this event

is very fulfilling

its a once in a lifetime experience and i want it to be that way!

so my plan???

I'm gonna study hard

work hard

to achieve my goals ..

and that kind of wedding is just one of them! :)

my lover and my bestfriend

i had been into relationships before

but it never last..

i know love is around me and it will just come around at

the right time

the right place

and with the right guy

in my past relationship i always thought that would be the last

then i started to learn

that in a relationship to make it last forever

don't expect too much instead

enjoy the happy memories you will be having as partners

and you will never notice that your relationship

can last for a lifetime

i never thought that he will be the last guy

but i always wish he was

our relationship is way more happy than the others i had before

we understand each other

were open about anything like; family problems, money problems, sex, friends, vices, bad deeds

we had in the past, school problems, self crisis, almost anything under the sun

if others can keep secret to their partners

we try to be open about anything to avoid secrecy in our relationship

we better tell the bad truth than tell a lie

because we believe that honesty is the best policy! hahahahaha

me and my partner always act as one

we decide together , help each other grow as a better person

we are trying to reach the perfect relationship partners could have.

and since there's no such thing as perfect

we also encounter problems that sometimes leads to break up!

but our relationship is too strong to be broken that easily

we may fight , shout at each other, and cry

but love always keep as bonded

were not a perfect couple

we also make bad decisions and wrong deeds

and we learn from those mistakes

assure each other not to do the same mistakes again

having in a relationship to a person that truly loves you is the most wonderful feeling

he is my lover for he loved me more than anything in this world

he is my best friend because he's always there for me, and the person i can really trust!

our relationship don't have enough experience yet

but i know that our relationship is getting stronger than before.

i love him today and i will love him forever!

love is never selfish, for love can set someone free for its own sake!

love is blind, because love never see its unworthy rather see its worth!

love is courageous, because it can fight for its true mean.

love is true, for it can never fade away!

love is sacred, for two people whose worth it.

and

LOVE is GOD for it can last eternity!

My Night Life!! :)

have you ever got drunk??

dance on the dance floor while guys are watching you shake your booty???

or going to parties with you friends??

well me and my friends usually do that!! :)

were nursing student.. but that doesn't mean we don't know how to have fun and just read books all night!

usually we go out Friday or Saturday night.

me and my friends went to different bars and we really love having fun together!

i'am proud to say that

i may be drinking alcohol, going to bars, meeting different kind of people..

but i know my limitations

i know when to stop :)

every night?? is different

we encounter celebrities and model to a bar

we meet cute guys

sometimes we also meet people who are not really nice at all

but the happiest part

me and my friends have fun and make good memories

gimikera is the term for girls who loves party every night!

were not gimikera

were just beautiful girls who loves having fun together!

and if you wanna have fun with us!! :)

just approach us, were nice to people who are nice to us! :)

an angel from afar!

i believe we all have guardian angels.. :)

who always protect us, and always there for you.

i believe i met my guardian angel when i was on 3rd year high school, where all kind of crisis strikes at me.

when i have a problem, depressed, sad, and alone usually i pray

hmmm.. then everything is gonna be alright again,

.. but heres the twist

i met someone this person is kinda special,

lets name this person "angel"

angel should be helping a friend to court me,

but i was attached to angel more ,

angel was always there for me...

we do things together , we have a happy friendship that leads to more than that!

but my mom was against our relationship

so we ended up as best friends

we were always there for each other

even though we have other friends then

i have my own relationship

angel also found the right person to be with.

we were happy way more than before..

i always remember this..

when i am sad angel always try to make me laugh,

angel was the person who knows everything about me

after our graduation

our communication is just phone,and chat

because i moved back here in antipolo

after 1st year of college angel will be moving out to canada

i was upset because i was not there when angel leaves the country

i was not able to go to the airport because of my studies.

the last time i saw angel personally when they visited me here at antipolo

its sad that my best friend have to leave me

but now even though angel is on Canada and i'm here in the Philippines

we still have communication through chat and other social networking sites...

i consider angel

as my guardian angel, my best friend

that is always there for me even though from afar!

and she was one of the greatest gift i have!

A REAL FRIEND! :)

my heart is racing!

at this point of time!!

my heart is beating really fast!! as in real fast!

im having a tachycardia! hahahahaha over acting???

because i dont know because of someone ..

i will just dedicate this song to him! :D

hey its just a simple crush ok.. hahahahaha its nothing mutual or what! i just have a crush on him!

his name?? its a BIG SECRET! hahahahahaha

(ammfff ayaw ma upload ng video! ggrrr.. hahahaha )

heres the lyrics!! :)

I don't know but
I think i maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe i should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til i
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But i want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So i'm hiding what i'm feeling
But i'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think i'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now i found ya
I don't know where to
I think i'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As i'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

I'm trying
Not to tell you
But i want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So i'm hiding what i'm feeling
But i'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think i'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now i found ya
I don't know where to
I think i'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh i just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

hahahaha ilove this song so much!

"but i learned"

everybody fall in love... everyone of us wants to experience and feel what love is..

and i did fall in love, with someone i shouldn't fall in love with!

i was blinded by the consequences of my actions, i don't even care what other people would think.

i was misjudged by the people surrounding me

all of the negative words thrown to me, all the threats, all of the humiliation i received, discrimination and everything.. i don't care!

i was blinded by the love i feel..

everyone judge me like i'm a flirt, bitch, asshole name it they've said it to me

apparently i just cried alone .. i go to school alone,

its like i don't have any real friends at all

so every time i go to class i just sit stay quiet, just let them do whatever they want.

i stay alone for almost the whole semester

i just cry and pray to god ..

the people i'm expecting to understand me more, left me

hmmm im just glad that he was there for me even though he was very sad about what's happening...

i dont know where did i get all the strength and confidence to still continue on living everyday with the people who hates me.

i forgive those people

and if there is someone i owe an apology that is my BEST FRIEND.

then i realize i can overcome those trials, hatred, misjudgment and humiliations because the person i love , my family and god is with me.

every night i pray, i cry but the people who loves me gives me the strength to move on with my life..

after a month

the people who hates me they just stopped ,

then i started to find my real friends

before the end of the semester my happy personality came back!

i started living a happy life,

i moved on, forget the people who hates me and let them be!

i was happy for the first year of my relationship with him.

but all of my sacrifices, pain, and tears was wasted...

we broke up and sad to say i dont even know the reason! its not even clear to me why we broke up!

i tried to fix everything , i loved him with all my heart and that was the first time i felt that!

he was my 1st love!

its just sad that i had suffer a lot in our relationship because i fought for him

and we ended up like that!

i was so disappointed and so much in pain!

i lost my best friend and i was suffering just to fight for him, and we ended up like that!

i was stupid!

because of that experience i learned many things,

i learned that i should not let love keep me blind for sacrificing someone just for him!

i lost a friendship because of him and i am stupid!

if i can just bring back the time!

but i just think of the positive thoughts why god let this happen to me!

and i thought that experiencing this

thought me a lot of lessons,

god let me loose someone, god let me be in pain

because he wants me to learn many things about life!

he wants me to make the right decisions,

and god let me loose someone because he knows i deserve someone better.

after that experience

i just met my real friends

i just met the right guy for me

and i am now happy with my life

and im proud to say that today i never hurt someone just to be happy!

im very stupid about what i did...

but with that mistake god let me learned.

i just realized that god let us make mistakes not to feel miserable, guilty or angry

but to let us learn from that mistakes!

im just a person im not perfect

i can hurt people, i can make bad decisions in life but i learned!

my family :D

Family are the people who is always there for you, supports you and cares for you.

i have a happy and complete family.

My mom and dad were always there for us I'm the eldest and i have 2 brothers.

my relationship with my family is close to perfect!

usually every sunday is family day, we eat together, go to church, do movie marathon, or sing together on the karaoke.

we talk at dinner tell each other's stories and make advices.

my dad loves telling jokes and his really good he can do or fix anything, in our village my dad is really popular because he is a friendly person, approachable and have a lot of patience, usually when we make mistakes my dad he talks to us seriously and really scary sometimes but he talks like a father. he gives his opinion, makes advice and accept our sorry.

my mom is like my best friend... i can tell her anything but sometimes when i tell her something she doesn't like she gets angry and its scary really because she will never allow me to go anywhere. she's really afraid that something may happen to me , i always tell her there's nothing to be afraid of because I'm an adult and i know right from wrong i know my limitations and that makes her feel that I'm a responsible daughter.

i always tell my parents that i may go to a party, do sleepovers, have a boyfriend, and go home late but despite all of those things i do, i know my limitations and the people around me are not that bad, they may act weird , talk louder, and say bad words but they're good as in really good. they were never a bad influence to me.

and about my two young brothers.. we fight sometimes but we really act as one! when it comes to household chores we do it together. that's why we don't need maids because chores makes us responsible and its like our bonding.

if every Sunday is family day, Saturday is general cleaning day! hahahaha

my brother gelo he do the laundry , my mom and i clean the whole house i always start cleaning my room, my mom start cleaning they're room. while my little brother Christian wash dishes and clean the windows, my dad he fix broken things like tables , chairs, and sometimes he makes a new furniture and he fix the car, and my grandmother cooks for us.

looks like a perfect family right?? but there's no perfect family.

sometimes my parents they're having financial problems because there are lot of bills to pay. and sometimes my 2 grandmother fight because of jealousy, insecurity, and money. when they fight my parents usually don't want to get involved, but if everything gets worse they involve themselves. actually even now?? my two grandmother they don't get along so they don't talk to each other. insane right?? but thats life..

i love my family so much!

we may not be rich, but were happy, complete and close! :D

actually i know god is guiding my family, helping us to have a strong relationship.

having a good relationship to god means great relationship to everybody.. :)