"but i learned"

everybody fall in love... everyone of us wants to experience and feel what love is..

and i did fall in love, with someone i shouldn't fall in love with!

i was blinded by the consequences of my actions, i don't even care what other people would think.

i was misjudged by the people surrounding me

all of the negative words thrown to me, all the threats, all of the humiliation i received, discrimination and everything.. i don't care!

i was blinded by the love i feel..

everyone judge me like i'm a flirt, bitch, asshole name it they've said it to me

apparently i just cried alone .. i go to school alone,

its like i don't have any real friends at all

so every time i go to class i just sit stay quiet, just let them do whatever they want.

i stay alone for almost the whole semester

i just cry and pray to god ..

the people i'm expecting to understand me more, left me

hmmm im just glad that he was there for me even though he was very sad about what's happening...

i dont know where did i get all the strength and confidence to still continue on living everyday with the people who hates me.

i forgive those people

and if there is someone i owe an apology that is my BEST FRIEND.

then i realize i can overcome those trials, hatred, misjudgment and humiliations because the person i love , my family and god is with me.

every night i pray, i cry but the people who loves me gives me the strength to move on with my life..

after a month

the people who hates me they just stopped ,

then i started to find my real friends

before the end of the semester my happy personality came back!

i started living a happy life,

i moved on, forget the people who hates me and let them be!

i was happy for the first year of my relationship with him.

but all of my sacrifices, pain, and tears was wasted...

we broke up and sad to say i dont even know the reason! its not even clear to me why we broke up!

i tried to fix everything , i loved him with all my heart and that was the first time i felt that!

he was my 1st love!

its just sad that i had suffer a lot in our relationship because i fought for him

and we ended up like that!

i was so disappointed and so much in pain!

i lost my best friend and i was suffering just to fight for him, and we ended up like that!

i was stupid!

because of that experience i learned many things,

i learned that i should not let love keep me blind for sacrificing someone just for him!

i lost a friendship because of him and i am stupid!

if i can just bring back the time!

but i just think of the positive thoughts why god let this happen to me!

and i thought that experiencing this

thought me a lot of lessons,

god let me loose someone, god let me be in pain

because he wants me to learn many things about life!

he wants me to make the right decisions,

and god let me loose someone because he knows i deserve someone better.

after that experience

i just met my real friends

i just met the right guy for me

and i am now happy with my life

and im proud to say that today i never hurt someone just to be happy!

im very stupid about what i did...

but with that mistake god let me learned.

i just realized that god let us make mistakes not to feel miserable, guilty or angry

but to let us learn from that mistakes!

im just a person im not perfect

i can hurt people, i can make bad decisions in life but i learned!